I met a guy in the club and we exchanged numbers and it was cool and cute and one time over the phone, he comments that I talk like a white person. I don't just sound like them in the way I enunciate, but the phrases I use... they're kinda alien to him (not his phrase, me just paraphrasing) and they way he chose to describe them is... white. Now, my initial internal reaction is indignation — MUTHAFUCKA CALLS MY WAY OF TALKING WHITE JUST COS I USE THE WORD "MASTURBATE" INSTEAD OF "JACKING OFF"??? (and uhh... yeah... that may have been where the conversation was going). It's not the he kept saying it over and over in a surprised ton — it's that he laughed at me. Anger turned to embarrassment turned to frustration and soon, I didn't wanna be flirtatious with this guy who I don't even remember what he looks like.
Then I thought, well... I can kinda maybe see where he's coming from. If his exposure to brown people talking always sounded a certain way and white people always sounding like another, then I might fit into his category of white people speak. I speak this way probably because I read lots growing up, probably because it's been ingrained in me to love clear enunciation and think the posh English accent is pre cool, probably because when Samoan was colonised and the English language was introduced to our shores, the English language was a mark of intelligence and higher social and economic class and those were usually white ppl or afakasi... usually. Probably that classist view of a fobby accent vs. non is still so strong.
I don't know man.
I really bothered me and it still does and there have been SO many think pieces on this kinda topic.
But I don't wanna just get defensive or point out how his point of view can be seen as racist or something.
Eh ka'ilo ia se.