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22. music as a metaphor or something

A few weeks ago I asked my facebook friends for their happy-bouncy song recommendations because I was in a dark place and I thought it was a way of reaching out, of engaging with people in a meaningful way because I didn't want to be alone.

And more people sent me recommendations than I expected, and friends who I didn't think would respond (as well as people who didn't respond that I assumed would. huh. anywho...)

When I tried some of the jams, they didn't click with me.

They didn't give me the joy that I was looking for, nor the joy that my happy-bouncy songs give me.

But they give joy to other people.

Though I can understand that that's possible, I didn't feel that truth. I just know it to be true because I believe it when my friends told me that these songs mean something to them. That it makes them happy. That it connected with them and brought out good feels.

And though I gave them more than one listens, some songs just didn't... feel good.

And it made me think about empathy.

And how thought you may not personally understand something to be true, try believing the people talking that it's true for them, and don't just write it off as incorrect. As lies.

Yeh.

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